Jamie Otis is feeling the stress. The 33-year-old pregnant Married at First Sight star took to Instagram on Wednesday to share a tearful video of herself sitting in the car. She filmed the clip after getting tested for COVID-19 at a drive-thru testing center.
"I feel really, really ridiculous crying. I'm crying all the time these days. I feel so silly," she began, tearing up. "I don't know why, I'm just genuinely so nervous. I mean, I feel like everything's going to be fine, but I just had the COVID-19 test because I'm full term now and I think I'm fine, but then I'm like, 'Am I fine? I don't know if I'm fine.'"
The test, which involves sticking a cotton swab far up your nose proved to be painful for Otis, who later shared the video of the test being performed on her Instagram Stories.
"Just the swab, I mean that hurt really bad. I was like, 'Good, God, if I can't handle the swab going up my nose, how am I going to have an unmedicated childbirth?'" she said through tears. "I think I'm just a little overwhelmed and I feel so annoyed at myself for being such a wimp about this. I feel like I'm annoying to my husband and my daughter. I'm just impatient and I just don't know how to reset my brain so I can just chill the F out. This is not how I want to behave or how I want to feel going into delivering my baby."
Otis went on to note that though she feels like her situation "is a nightmare," she added that she's "trying to stay positive and balanced."
Otis is planning to have a home birth due to the fact that she has a low-risk pregnancy.
"I feel very annoying and like a wimp because other women have it so much worse than I do. And here I am whining over everything," she continued, still crying.
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I had planned on taking my weekly bump pic and CELEBRATING the fact that I’m full term but honestly, right now I’m in such an emotional rut & smiling for a cutesy pic is the last thing on my mind. I dont wanna pretend I’m all happy-go-lucky over here when I’m a complete MESS. I’m embarrassed to admit it & I feel *so* annoying to even be concerned about anything! I’m so fortunate that I have a HEALTHY rainbow baby who is FULL TERM! (I’ve been holding my breath this whole pregnancy)🙏🏻 I am the LUCKY one who gets to stay home and quarantine while others have to go out and risk their lives to help those who are sick. Honestly, I’m an RN and should be out there helping too but instead I’m safe inside. Which I justify with being pregnant but there are *so many* pregnant women going into the battle zone daily! They’re the real heroes!!!! I feel so corny to say this, but I genuinely want to thank everyone who is out there risking their lives to help save everyone else/deliver their foods, stock the shelves, etc. I know there are signs on the roads and you probably see it all the time that we at home are thankful for you - but I hope you genuinely *know* each time you gown up, get your masks & gloves on & walk into work WE AT HOME WHO ARE SAFE AND PROTECTED ARE SO *THANKFUL* for you and we applaud you!!🙏🏻👏🏻 And if you’re a pregnant mama worried over everything and anything right now aaaaand you feel kinda psycho with your emotions - girl, I GET IT.💯 I’m here for you if you need to vent! .... We will ALL get through this! One step at a time!🙏🏻🤰🏼👶🏼💗 #positivevibesonly
In her caption, Otis added that knowing she's a registered nurse but not on the frontlines helping sick patients has also made her feel guilty.
"I’m an RN and should be out there helping too but instead I’m safe inside. Which I justify with being pregnant but there are *so many* pregnant women going into the battle zone daily! They’re the real heroes!!!!" she wrote.
The reality star and her husband, Doug Hehner, first announced her pregnancy back in September after she suffered multiple miscarriages. The pair are already parents to 2-year-old daughter Henley and are currently expecting a boy.
Otis has gotten candid on social media about her fears going into this pregnancy after the loss of others.
"As much as I tried my best to 'put positive vibes out only' and 'only focus on the good' the fear CONSTANTLY snuck up and it was a battle to push it away again," Otis wrote of her pregnancy journey in a recent post.
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36 wks +5 days!!!🤰🏼 We weren’t sure we’d ever make it this far-but we HAVE!👶🏼🌈 When you lose babies early it really rips your heart out & steals the innocent joy & simple bliss of pregnancy. Instead of being blindly happy for life growing inside you, you constantly fear what could happen that could take it away. ...Even when you tell yourself to stop.🤦🏼♀️ As much as I tried my best to “put positive vibes out only” and “only focus on the good” the fear CONSTANTLY snuck up & it was a battle to push it away again. I tried not to talk about it bc I didn’t want to put any negative vibes out into the universe.🙅🏼♀️ *But now we are SO CLOSE to being full term.* This little guy has held on tight and I can feel how strong he is inside me!🙏🏻💙 Of course it isn’t ideal, but if he came now he’d survive!🙌🏼 I know it! And it’s like I can finally rest a bit more each day☺️ ....We just have a few days to go before I can safely deliver him at home (37 weeks) so that’s our next milestone we’re praying for!👏🏻💗 Either way, it’s just a matter of days/weeks until we get to see this little warriors face! I cannot wait to kiss him and breathe in his newborn scent. I want to hold him on my chest and look into his precious eyes and tell him how much his mommy and daddy PRAYED for him & love him.👶🏼🌈 Thank you to all of you who prayed with us for this sweet blessing..while we were #ttc and throughout my pregnancy. I could FEEL the love.🥰 All your prayers, sticky baby dust & positive vibes WORKED!👏🏻 WE ARE SO THANKFUL for all your love and support!😘 Truly!🙏🏻💙 #rainbowbaby #babycomingsoon #pregnancy #preggers
Otis previously revealed that she miscarried at 10 weeks back in January 2019. Prior to that, she lost a son they named Johnathan Edward four months into Otis' 2016 pregnancy. In September 2018, Otis revealed that she had suffered an early miscarriage just days after celebrating a positive pregnancy test.
For more on Otis' pregnancy journey, watch the clip below: